Live Life Abundantly

"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift; that is why it is called the present."

I've been in search of something new. Something different than the typical mundane. I was feeling as if I've failed. However, looking back, I realize that its in the journey that I am finding what I'm searching for.

Just the other day, I took a new route home. Number eight, all the way, cutting across a small town to finally get home. The things that I discovered (although they had been there a while) were exciting and new, grasping my interest and quenching my thirst only for a moment. The next day, I decided to drive a while, taking a familiar route. Looking up from my familiar way, I thought--I wonder where that leads...

so I took the new route. To my amazement, it happened to lead me directly to my favorite bridge in my city :) I'm not talking any bridge, it is my FAVORITE bridge. It's an indescribable blue, bright and beautiful, but that day--it was the most beautiful I had ever seen it. Also known as the "singing bridge", I was now on it. It wasn't new, but in exploring a new route, I found something that meant so much to me.

So now, I have decided to challenge myself. Not something huge, but something to help me feel the abundance of life. I know that I have the choice to live life more abundantly, therefore I so choose.

This morning, I took a walk to enjoy the morning, and enjoy is exactly what I did.

Now, for the challenge: I'm giong to try something new until I've tried 100 new things. I hope to fill my summer with exciting adventures, and discover what all is around me. Instead of closing myself off to the world around me, I'm going to live in the moment and make each day it's very own. I'm not sure what I hope to find, or if I will find anything, but that's not the point. The point is to be at one with the universe, without a care in the world, living for and feeling the moment. Someone recently helped me to realize the importance of feeling things. I hope he knows that he helped to prove all things dead inside can be revived; I just have to be open to it. Words cannot express how meaningful my time with him has been and just how truly grateful I am to what he's taught me in such a short time, most likely without his knowledge. For now, I can only say thank you.

Three down, 97 more new things to experience...

Life Awaits...

Lately, there has been news of many people passing and anniversaries of those who have already passed have come again. It can be discouraging, however, I feel an urgency to set new dreams and goals for myself. Ever since I visited Korea, I have felt accomplished, though sort of lost at the same time. It took me three years to fulfill a promise to my friends, but I eventually did it--as I intended. Now, I'm almost searching for new adventures, but yet my heart is not longing for distant adventures; it seems my heart is settling and longing for the sense of home and family all the more.

I've been fortunate to find a job close to home, that I truly enjoy most days; I get to see my community and those neighboring it. It's actually starting to feel like "home" which is something I've not been able to experience for at least ten years. The feeling of a sojourner is fading and I feel I have reason to stay in one place. I can't begin to describe the comfort of security and how refreshing it is to taste it. It's leaving me thirsty for more. How does one find "home"? Can it be found? Do you just build it? Do circumstances enable or hinder it? Can it truly feel like "home" if there's only you?

I'm starting to actually realize what I truly want from life. I've never really wanted anything for myself until recently; I've never really done anything  for myself, until now. Again, I sense the urgency to be all that I can be, here and now. I just wonder, how do I do it? What do I do? Which path do I chose? Is there a wrong path? What if it's just a fork in the road where either decision takes me forward to wonderful things, but I must only choose one? What will I miss by not taking the other road? How will I know that the road I choose is the one that will truly make me most happy--most successful? What is success? How is it measured? Don't get me wrong, I'm excited for the journey; there's so much that I enjoy, how do I just choose one thing?

I just feel like life is waiting on me. I must take a step, any step--forward. It will require faith, for the end result is unknown. For once, I feel like I cannot see the end result, but if I don't take a step at all, then what is being offered will soon be relinquished.

Life awaits...I must begin. Just take a step. Now. Let life carry me through the unknown.